
It didn't dawn on me that my birthday is tomorrow until today! I mean, usually I count ALL of November as my BIRTHDAY MONTH! Since I turned 40 last year, I kind of put my birthday in the back of my mind. It's not that I FEEL 41 one, although what does 41 years old even FEEL like? I guess it's all mental, ya know? My mindset.

I will say this, since I was approaching 40 last year, my ULTIMATE goal
was to look INCREDIBLE. From the age of 36-39, I was ALL ABOUT RIPPED
abs, RUNNING like a MACHINE, Looking SEXY, having the blondest hair and
the tiniest little waist with big fake boobies. I wanted to look like a
Barbie doll! There was NO WAY, I would LOOK 40 on my 40th birthday! MY
THOUGHTS, MY WORDS, MY GOALS took me to my goal- and I ACHIEVED
everything I set out to! In my mind, envisioning myself to LOOK a
certain way would make me FEEL a certain way inside. I KNEW if I had a
super ripped stomach, I would NEVER feel self conscious about it, and
that would be a GREAT THING for me. I KNEW if I worked my ass off in the
gym to build my legs for running, I would be able to run my half
marathons- I did just that. I KNEW if I ate a Vegan lifestyle, I would
FEEL great about it. I KNEW that when keeping my hair blond it would
mentally make me more vibrant, bubbly and dynamic- -whereas every time I go back to dark brown hair, I end up sad, depressed and in a dark place.

What
am I getting at? I am trying to tell you that YOUR THOUGHTS decide YOUR
FATE- whether physical, emotional, spiritual and or financial. For me
to become the ULTIMATE BEST ME EVER, I had to FIRST envision in my mind a
picture of what the BEST me would look like, feel like, act like and
live like. Once I acknowledged what I wanted to change, I had to set
forth in motion my plan of action. EVERY negative thought I had about
myself had to be erased from my mind, and taken over with a POSITIVE
thought of myself. My positive thinking and having my goals set with an
action plan helped me begin to step forward and NEVER look back.

If you think by taking pictures of myself it's narcissistic, think
again. It couldn't be furthest from the truth. Fact is, that when I look
back and reflect on where I was when a certain pictures was taken, I'm
not only looking at the shell of my existence, but what I was going
through mentally at that time in my life. I become more aware of ME when
I look back at old pictures, and connect emotionally the time with the
picture. I take full responsibility for NOT loving myself ENOUGH at the
time to allow any unhappy feelings or emotions to occur and to let them
show on my shell (my body). I also take blame and acknowledge the fact
that I didn't KNOW then what I know NOW about my body, my soul, my mind
and my emotions. I forgive myself, now, and still would NEVER want to
return to that person again.

Knowledge is POWER and I
accept responsibility for the life I have created over the past 41
years. I have the power to get up each day and MAKE IT BETTER THAN THE
DAY BEFORE and NO ONE can take that away. So turning 41 for me is better
than it was turning 31! 10 years ago I wasn't HALF the woman I am now
in ANY WAY SHAPE OR FORM.
Reaching other women my age
trying to transform them from the inside out is the MOST challenging and
rewarding job all in one! If more women would OPEN their minds and
allow for new positive changes to push through and suck out the negative
thoughts of self loathing, self doubt and fear, MORE woman my age would
be walking around with so much EMPOWERMENT!

I won't
deny I am aware that I look WAY younger than I am. I won't deny that
most 25 year old young woman don't care for themselves like I do, but
NEVER do I compare myself with ANYONE, because 31 or 41 years old, we
are ALL on our OWN journeys in life. My just happens to be pretty damn
INCREDIBLE, thanks to the Good LORD for ALWAYS being with me, and thanks
to the people I have surrounded myself with and yes even to the people I
have decided are toxic in my life and are no longer there. At one time
those toxic people served their purpose, and Im learning that every
person comes into you life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. It's
your choice to keep them there or let them go.
At 41
years old, I am all about building NEW relationships with people who
make me feel good, make me smile, happy and bring out the BEST in me.

Cheers!