What a crappy weekend for me, on SOOO many levels. I will rant for a few minutes, and then I will be over it, so stick with me here, my friends....
I always look forward to Saturdays because I end up having a GREAT workout, I FEEL better on Saturdays then any other day of the week, I guess because I don't have to get up at the crack of dawn.
Anyway, I woke up on Saturday and got right to my wellness clients and their meal plans for the week. I answered all my emails and cleaned up the house. I pulled out my gym clothes.... LOOKED at them and tossed them BACK in the drawer- Oh, I did! Right in that instant, I KNEW it would be one of those days. I was moody as all hell, I was BLOATED like I was 6 months pregnant, and so lethargic! On my period tracker app, it said 1 more day- (until I get my you-know-what). I was praying and hoping that I was pregnant! I am so ready, and I think EVERYONE is ready for us to have a damn baby! Sheesh!
The other thing about Saturday was that I was hungrier than usual! I woke up and had a shake*. All of the sudden bout 2 hours later, I got the sudden urge for WHAT!?!?! YUP, you guessed it! Fresh turkey breast off the bone! I got in my car and drove to Butler Brother's in Harrison, where I KNEW I would get the BEST fresh turkey. I couldn't wait to get home to eat it! Oh my! HEAVEN! SO When i got in the door, here was my meal:
- 6 slices fresh turkey rolled up
- sauteed mushrooms (from BB's)
- Roasted peppers (couldn't resist, even though they are a night shade veggie)
- a small baked yam
Seriously, what the hell!?!? I ate that like I was going to the electric chair! I HAVE to be pregnant! I am NEVER so ravenous when I eat. Besides, WHO THE HECK craves turkey!?!? Well, I sure do, and I can't even help it!
I chatted with my honey before we parted ways, he went to the gym, and I went to get my hair chopped and colored by no other than the BEST in the business- Jacki P & Dorreen from Salon O- in Byram CT. Sometimes, I worry myself. I sware, I was ready to chop it all off, and then as soon as Doreen cut it, I wanted my pony tail back- Are you people the same way? Well, The color is awesome, and the cut is awesome. Time to move on from that!
Walked into Tarry Market in Port Chester, ready to toss everything in my cart and leave.... I ended up getting a fabulous piece of Tuna, a delicious olive oil from Portugal, some yummy olives, and I even grabbed 3 giant oranges- Is this because I have a baby growing in me, that I was to eat everything in site? hmmm......
Ended up having a very quiet night with Mario, as we switched back and forth between football (KILL ME) and some National Geographic show about birds and nature ( THAT- I love!)
Ok, here is where we all get bummed out. Laying in bed this morning, after getting up to pee 4 times last night, I woke up with the worst cramps EVER! Mario asked me what was wrong and I told him. I could feel the sadness in the room between us. UGH! When I went to pee AGAIN, there was nothing there, so I hoped I was pregnant with just the symptoms of a period, as so many women experienced. I got dressed in my gym clothes and decided to get to the gym. Just sweating it all out- The bloating, the sadness, the stress, the disapointment.
What REALLY sucked is that I SO badly just wanted to run and do some abs, but I felot as if my intestines were going to fall out of me, I had so much pressure down there, that it was actually painful to even walk, so then I forced myself to run/walk until I hit one mile. AT that pointg, I was in pain, and very umcomfortable, so I went over to the UBE and did that for 10 minutes. Believe it or not, I was sweating like crazy- which felt good, as I really wanted to get the bloating and pain gone as fast as possible. I am not even comfortable in my own skin right now.
Well, looks like we are not pregnant, and so October will be another month we get to try. This time, I am praying, and also keeping track like one anal crazy lady! If we don't get pregnant soon, I will change my mind. I am going to be 41 in November, and regardless of anyone else and their situation, I don't want to be any older with a little baby- That's that.
Although I couldn't run today like I had in my journal, I was able to sweat hard and bust my ass on the treadmill, UBE, and the dreaded stair monster. I feel a little bit better, since I went to Whole Food's, and sucked down a green juice from Blue Print Cleanse along with a Kind Bar (which now has less than 4 grams of sugar). I will continue to drink loads of water today, warm water tonight with lemon and lots of veggies.
Here is a GREAT little recipe if you have bloating or gas:
Magnesium: 400 mg two times per day on an empty belly
Probiotics: 8-16 Billion organisims a day
Evening Primrose oil: 3,000 mg per day